Before, I used to think that friendship is mean everything in my life, It's really took a very important position in my life right after my family. But something happened recently makes me realize that actually, " friendship" is not EVERYTHING, but they are only SOMETHING in this life. Do you know how much I have lost just because of the stupid promises that we ever made? And oPps.. Did I ever told you that I hate people who cannot keep for the promises? I even have a so-do-I-Call- "the war of century" with the Bf just because I want to keep the promises as I think friendship is more important than relationship. But at the end, what I got is not what I wish. Haha..
Well, to be honest, yes, I did angry with you when you first told me about your final decision. Why? Because from the beginning til the end, I'm really working so hard to go and looking for all the admission information, financial support information, email to the Uni, asking for this and that and bla bla bla...And the reason why I am doing all this shit is because I'm really wish that all of us can go to the Uni together once again. And remember, who is the one saying that she is fed up with study and decided to start working after grad? Remember who said will give up the master because of none of her family was support her to go? and remember who are the rest that keep on encourage her and advice her not to give up because no matter how hard is the life is gonna be, but we promise to find the way to support the living cost and education fees all by our self? But after a while, I decided to just forgot about it. I make up my mind to stop angry of her as I remembered what is written in the prayer-" Our Father in heaven, please forgive us as we forgive those who sins against us". So, that is. What is the point for me to keep on angry with her? Even me myself is a sinner who is still waiting for the forgiveness from the Lord and what is my right to put the blame on her? That is her future, So If she think the decision she has made is worth for her, then just go ahead. I will always pray for her good luck. Besides, I should put the blame on myself too. I'm too depending on the others. Living alone means the end of the world for me. But I forgot, study is about oneself, we should not make the decision just because to follow what the others do. It is all about own future, own career, own pathway. Furthermore, I would like to say Thanks for Lee, you're right, we will meet lots more friends days by days after the class start. So if i'm really decided to go for the further study, there is no reason for me to worry about living alone in the new environment. Because I'm doing all of this for myself, not for the others. So I should'nt put my future on the other's shoulder. From now on, I should learn to be independent.
ps: Anyway, no matter what, I still heart all my pals so much...CheerSs. and if anyone feel this post is offensive, pls let me know, I will try to delete it as soon as possible. and if anyone of you feel hurt bcux of what i have wrote, i' would like to say sorry for that. I don't mean it, I just want to spit out my feeling in MY OWN LITTLE CORNER, my own blog, so there is nothing wrong right?
There are many friends who come and go in my life. It's true that "friendship forever" is something really hard to keep. As we grow older, our needs, wants and opinion tend to change. I have good friends during secondary sch and after i changed another sch, we did not see each others for 10 years. Now suddenly someone trying to organize reunion and gathered all the old classmate together through facebook, i was shocked. Some of my old friends changed a lot. A "pro study" changed into a gangster. The most troublesome becoming a doctor.. many many more. I believe that going to university is our own decision. It is difficult to "go with friend" because the course u want or the future career ur interested in may not be the same. Ahh..... now i'm still a university student. Even so, I felt i getting lesser and lesser friend. Yes i have many friends... but not many real friends. I realize that there are many different type of friends. There are people who make friend with me because they need me for their studies or project in uni. There are friends for political(not government type) reason. many more....... Sometimes i think in life I have to be selfish and only care about myself. Ahh.... dono. Just my piece of thought. Btw, I saw your blog through friendster. I'm not in ur buddy list... Just happened to copy paste this link.
ReplyDeleteYes. Definitely agree with you!!We hv to be selfish, not only sometimes but Everytimes.^^Anyway, really thanks so much for giving me your comment at here & Nice to meet you.
ReplyDeleteweii...so sad i read dis..y everytin is so negative?? alto mayb is true tat -no frenship forever-, but dun la said we hv to b selfish...huhuhu...fren is actualy nt keepin in frnt our eyes, is deep in our heart~
ReplyDeleteSad ho? I oso damn sad eh..Feel tat im damn soi lo dis year..hehe.but no matter wat,at least we hv gone through smth sweetsSss together b4 tat r worth for us to keep as memories right?
ReplyDeleteBut no matter wat we r doing, we hv to think for ourself 1st b4 we think for d ppl...Cux no body else will treat u better than urself. Hmm.kinda envy with u ppl, can owes hanging out together with friends, yam cha together, everyth together la..mind if i join 1 mo?hehe..well, mayb thr is a problem with my PR skills, gonna put more effort on tat.
Anyway, thnks for d comment yo.