Another Sh*ttinG day

Finally, i have made a hard decision sent a sms to my best friend & tell her that i can't accept her to stay with me. But as i expected, she not bother to give me a reply. Seem like i gonna lose another bestie soon...Well...it doesn't mean that im not willing to help her, but i also have my own prob to worry about...futhermore, that is her family problem...i dont want to get myself into this shit...ANyhow, i could b a good listerner to her, anytime, any place...But not to bring her away from her family n escape from all this shit...Hopefully she wil understand this all soon...

Now, i feel kinda sad & regret & guilty after i sent the sms out to her...Can anyone tell me please, is it a wrong decision for me to treat her like tat? M i been too cruel to her? huh...

And about my family prob....Ok fine..Guess what? Because of their selfishness & i m the one who been warn, wash brain & lecture!!!DAmn angry!! Well...u all are adult, knw to think!! DOnt just simply make a decision as it wasn't a game!! From the day u decided to choose this pathway, then you have to be responsible enough toward it for your whole life! And please understand, no matter what kind of fucking decision that you were make are not only involving you youself anymore, indeed, it will affected all the people around u!! And being the youngest, i am the one who will be giving of a full time & free lecture for over and over again!! So who said being the youngest is the better? Tell me?!! n I m here to tell you that being youngest are totally& definitely ain't that blissful as you thought!


p/s: Sorry for using foul word in this post...But i'm very angry now!

MoOdy...

MoodiieEee....I really hope that i can concentrate on my fyp...But no mood to do it...Im so tired & sad~to0 much problem continuously happen around my life...My Family and My friends....HMmmMm... StreSs...i dont know how to accept all of this...its too sudden to me.

Although im not a Christian yet, but i really hope Dear Lord Jesus can hear my prayer & give me a guidance to overc0me all of this. May god bless My family, especially My sis...I love them so much...I dont want to see them sad, moody & heartbreak..My friends. pls help me to pray for them too...I really love them so much...please....aNd to My friend, i really h0pe that you can understand my situation, i want to help u, but im helpless...Bcux i have my own problem too...Please...But if you still cant understand it, then im speechless...May God bless you too..amen